15/9/06

// feeling :: great
// listening to :: Glory Shines - CHC

What can I say about today? Its always been a day I've been looking forward to, to come together with my cell and to just have fellowship and a time with God. I enjoy it very much ~

Anyway, I had Science Paper 5 [Practical] today. I didnt manage to finish my paper. I spent so much time on the last question that by the time I knew how to do it and started writing, time was up.

Today's Cell Meeting was together with W229, because W271 needed a guitarist. It was good. About communication.

I learnt how to fully communicate with other people, and what it meant to come clean with someone, and to share innermost feelings. I paired up with Simon, and saw a new side of him that I've never seen before. We prayed for each other. I thank God for this opportunity to have such fellowship with a Brother.

Then Sis Cat approached me and told me to gather those who are interested in becoming the cell guitarist. I managed to get Simon, Alissa and Weikeong. Then we just prayed together. Spent quite some time listening to God.

Sis Cat said that we have to be fully committed. And it requires our time and practice. I thought I could do it. I forgot now was the exam period. After the prelims, school would go back to normal. I wouldnt have the time then.

It broke my heart to say no in the end. Sigh. I love the guitar. A couple of days before today, I somehow missed my guitar a lot. So I sms-ed Joel, asking for it back. And now...Sis Cat asked about cell guitarist. I really wonder if I am the one called to be the guitarist. Duno...With my other commitments now, I'm not sure if I can quickly learn the basics and start playing for cgms.

I'll see how..I really wanna do something else for the cell group. Not just open up my house for the meetings and bringing friends. When I see Gregory play for W271 last time, I always felt this hurt inside my heart, that even though I want to be like him, I cant.

But I guess God has his own timing, yeah? I trust Him :) Hallelujah.

Your name is like honey on my lips, Your spirit like water to my soul. Your word is a lamp unto my feet, Jesus I love You, I love You.